Pre Season Task 2

Ok, so with DAYS to go before kick off, and menus for Week 1 launched, I set aside some time to power through some pre season tasks. Now I understand fully that these pre season tasks need to be done well, as this will set you up for the best results possible. But I have done these before, and well, although not much has changed, I gained some further insight into my behaviours...

Excuses, Excuses.

I listed a whole heap of general excuses in the spaces provided when you sign in. Basically, looking at them, they are pretty lame and have summarised them all into three important points..

1. I am constantly sabotaging myself with petty issues. So with each of these lame excuses for not doing it - the busy, tired, can't be bothered types - I am now answering back at myself with one phrase.

HOW BAD DO YOU WANT IT?

Now this is genius. I stole it from a lovely person on the forums (told her I was stealing it!) and have made this my motto for the round. I have been trialling it. With every argument I have with myself in my head about what I am eating, doing etc and all the justifying I try and do, this phrase wins hands down every time. I am happy I have this to fall back on when those little excuses try and win out!

2. The overwhelming feeling of what's ahead can be paralysing. I get this feeling in excuses like "I'll start Monday" or "One meal won't make a lot of difference". My solution to this is I need to take this journey one tiny step at a time. Focussing on day by day, and bit by bit, I will:

CHIP AWAY!

3. Now another thing that I discovered was holding me back was housework/other things to do. Now I know I have to give myself priority, but I cannot help but get the guilts. So , there is no other option than be organised and stay on top of things, without getting distracted. So another important area I will focus greatly on is:

ORGANISATION AND DISCIPLINE

This is a massive area and needs a lot of attention. Will focus on this again in Task 7.

So there you are, my three solutions (because I am no longer focussing on excuses!) in a nutshell. Feel better because I think I have worked out basically how to get around things that are holding me back - finally!

YAY!

L. x

First Weigh In

Since it is Wednesday, I thought I would do my first "official" weigh in for my pre-season.

Today, I was 67.6kg.

At 166cm tall, that gives me a BMI of 24.53.

In numbers, it doesn't sound all that bad. However, I carry a lot of body fat, especially the abdominal kind which is dangerous for health ( I have an extreme case of muffin top). And although I can fit ok into some of my size 12 jeans, most of my clothes are getting really tight as I have stacked about 5 kilos in the past couple of months. I don't want to go out and buy bigger clothes.

I have not been near this weight since I was about 30 weeks pregnant, 6 years ago. What on earth has happened to me?

The Australian Institute for Health and Welfare states that a BMI of 25 or over is classed as overweight. My numbers are near that, and it is WRONG!

Ok, so this is a little depressing, but the facts are now laid out. No time to dwell. Onwards and upwards from here! Time to reach for that sky..

L. x

The What and Why...

Well, here it is. Laid out. Raw and honest. For anyone and everyone to read..

I am about to embark on a journey, a 12 week journey, and begin a transformation. Courtesy of Michelle Bridges. For more information, or to join me and many others, visit www.12wbt.com. Before I begin, I need to get some things out.

Confessions

1. This is not the first, or the second time I have enrolled in this program. I am not exactly sure how many, you would have to check with Michelle. Enrolled -yes. Been consistent, followed the plan, transformed? NO.
2. My weight is getting out of control. Now everyone is different, and although my BMI is still in the healthy range (just), I have put on weight recently, and can see this pattern continuing if I don't act now.
3. The declining state of my health is beginning to really scare me.
4. I have been unhappy with my weight and fitness level for probably 7 years, and that is mentally draining.
5. I really haven't done much to help my situation, or achieve my weight loss goals, in fact I have done everything to sabotage them.

Unlike past attempts, I am going to give this one a fair go. I have to. I need to. To use one of Michelle's analogies, I am in the backseat of a car careering down the mountain, watching it crash. I need to get in the driver's seat and take control, once and for all. For some reason I feel like this is my last chance - if I can't do it now, well...I don't want to even consider that option.

Reading the forums on the 12wbt site has encouraged me to start this blog. I have a few reasons:

• To share. One thing I have learnt from reading others stories, comments and experiences, is that we all go through the same stuff. It helps to know you are not alone. You can learn a lot, pick up some tips, and find inspiration.
• To diary. By writing what I am feeling, what I am doing on this program, and documenting my progress, I can look back, reflect and learn.
• Accountability. I have cyberspace to answer to. Everyone will read if I mess up or do the wrong thing.. It will keep me honest and on track (hopefully!).

Ok, so that is it. This is the beginning. I feel like there is so much to get through, so much to learn. But I have now taken the first step.

Next on the agenda is pre-season tasks, I have started them, but want to go through them thoroughly and document here. But with tomorrow being Wednesday, I will do my first "official" weigh in.

Until next time,

L.

PS. I love words that are inspirational to me, applicable and have meaning. I'm starting a collection and will include them as much as possible, and authors when I know. For today:

"Sometimes I get nervous, when I see an open door. Close your eyes, clear your heart. Cut the cord."

The Killers. (2008) Human. On Day and Age.