Setback already - Day 3

Struggling.

No exercise so far. Will change that this afternoon. PROMISE.

I lacked serious will power at lunchtime today. Met a friend at Dome for coffee. We decided to have lunch. I was just going to have poached eggs on toast with tomato (manageable to work into calories). I could imagine myself ordering it in my head, but for some reason when I got to the counter I said "Salmon Eggs Hollandaise" Cannot explain why. Maybe it was myself saying - you lost 1.5kg, you can handle it. Maybe the discipline of eating within calories was just getting too much to bear. Maybe - I don't like making things easy for myself. BINGO. Sabotage.

Well, then I shared a piece of cake, because my friend insisted we have dessert.

There it is, confession over, lapse in concentration over. Back to it, no writing off the rest of the day.

I need to find some strength!!!

Oh and by the way, was so happy to hear Michelle in her video last night say "chip away, chip away, chip away" Yay - one of my philosophies for the round!

Bye for now, just going to go hop back on that wagon!

L. x

The What and Why...

Well, here it is. Laid out. Raw and honest. For anyone and everyone to read..

I am about to embark on a journey, a 12 week journey, and begin a transformation. Courtesy of Michelle Bridges. For more information, or to join me and many others, visit www.12wbt.com. Before I begin, I need to get some things out.

Confessions

1. This is not the first, or the second time I have enrolled in this program. I am not exactly sure how many, you would have to check with Michelle. Enrolled -yes. Been consistent, followed the plan, transformed? NO.
2. My weight is getting out of control. Now everyone is different, and although my BMI is still in the healthy range (just), I have put on weight recently, and can see this pattern continuing if I don't act now.
3. The declining state of my health is beginning to really scare me.
4. I have been unhappy with my weight and fitness level for probably 7 years, and that is mentally draining.
5. I really haven't done much to help my situation, or achieve my weight loss goals, in fact I have done everything to sabotage them.

Unlike past attempts, I am going to give this one a fair go. I have to. I need to. To use one of Michelle's analogies, I am in the backseat of a car careering down the mountain, watching it crash. I need to get in the driver's seat and take control, once and for all. For some reason I feel like this is my last chance - if I can't do it now, well...I don't want to even consider that option.

Reading the forums on the 12wbt site has encouraged me to start this blog. I have a few reasons:

• To share. One thing I have learnt from reading others stories, comments and experiences, is that we all go through the same stuff. It helps to know you are not alone. You can learn a lot, pick up some tips, and find inspiration.
• To diary. By writing what I am feeling, what I am doing on this program, and documenting my progress, I can look back, reflect and learn.
• Accountability. I have cyberspace to answer to. Everyone will read if I mess up or do the wrong thing.. It will keep me honest and on track (hopefully!).

Ok, so that is it. This is the beginning. I feel like there is so much to get through, so much to learn. But I have now taken the first step.

Next on the agenda is pre-season tasks, I have started them, but want to go through them thoroughly and document here. But with tomorrow being Wednesday, I will do my first "official" weigh in.

Until next time,

L.

PS. I love words that are inspirational to me, applicable and have meaning. I'm starting a collection and will include them as much as possible, and authors when I know. For today:

"Sometimes I get nervous, when I see an open door. Close your eyes, clear your heart. Cut the cord."

The Killers. (2008) Human. On Day and Age.